HELLO! Ah man haven’t been on here for a minute… Where to start???
Well school just started a week ago today and it’s going pretty good so far! 5 classes, 13 units… I really like my wine and spirits class and menu planning class. Both seem interesting with good teachers. I’m really looking forward to all the information that I’ll be learning this semester that I will benefit from. I’ll admit it, I love going to school. I know, I’m a nerd but I can’t help myself! But it’s all good :) AND I’m also on the Dean’s List for last semester!!!!! Saweetttttt =D
My relationship with Paul has skyrocketed within these last couple of months. It’s amazing and I’m very thankful to have him in my life. We’re definitely taking things up to the next level and I can’t wait to see what happens next! He’s such a wonderful person who has so much genuine things about him. He’s real and I’m happy that he’s like that. 11 months is coming up on February 20th!!!! OMG!!!!! There isn’t a day without him on my mind, I care about him so much… I really really like him and I can’t wait to say those 3 little words… I already feel it in my heart but I just hope that he feels the same way. I can totally tell that he really wants to say it whenever he looks into my eyes, or when we’re kissing or hugging. These past 10 months have gone by super fast and I’ve learned a lot about him. I can’t stop thinking about him. I’ve fallen hard for Paul… But what sucks is that we won’t be able to spend our first Valentine’s Day together :-/ I’m not happy about it but from what my mom told me is to move on, he’ll make it up. So that’s what I’m doing.
My relationship with Natalia is gone. Her and I have drifted apart within the last year. I don’t want a friendship with someone who demands attention all the time and someone who’s just drama. I don’t need to waste anymore breath on her, not worth my time. I have terrific friends who care about me, are always there for me and who don’t miss my birthday twice in a row… Complete BS. Anyways I’m over the situation and I don’t care anymore. I’m happy with the way things are going and I can’t complain!
I love my life. Thank you GOD for giving me this life. AMEN.
So I know I haven’t been on here for a while but the reasons are legit. School has been going pretty well this semester which I’m really happy about! But there has so much homework and non-stop studying. Every week I’m at the library doing homework and getting it done! Which is great :) I’m excited for next semester though… 5 classes, 13 units! Wish me luck!
Me and Paul’s 8 month anniversary is coming up on Friday!! I cannot believe that 8 months has gone by so fast… Oh my goodness. But I’m happy as so is he! There are just absolutely no words to describe how much I miss him everyday… Those feelings are definitely coming though, those feelings of much higher emotions and whatnot.
Last week I met with Talia for a quick hang out. I’ve been wanting to see her for a while but never made the time to. The reason why I haven’t seen her is due to the fact that I didn’t want to deal with it. I had too many things going on and I figured that I’ll deal with it when I want to. But I also really wanted my boots back also! But it was good seeing her for sure.
I’m turning 21 in one month!!!!!!!!!!! Absolutely cannot wait, seriously. Finally get to have a life outside of school haha.
So this past Sunday was my 6-month anniversary with Paul! I just couldn’t believe that we’ve been together for half a year now…It just seems like we’ve been a couple for a while now and everything seems to be going great. Who knows what these next 6 months will bring for the both of us… We’re still learning about each other everyday and missing each other more and more. And what really surprises me is that we haven’t had any arguments or fights. I guess you can say that our personalities are alike, and plus we are open and honest with each other and we both agreed in the beginning of our relationship that communication was crucial into making this relationship work. So far we have been honest with each other and we communicate everyday. To be honest, I’m just a little scared of what’s going to happen to us…I mean he’s my first boyfriend and I’m nervous; there’s just things on my mind that I think about everyday and what will happen next. Sometimes I wonder what it would be like to be with another person, say like my best friend..He and I have been friends for 3 years and to this day, I can still feel a chemistry between us. I mean, we almost were in a relationship last year but he decided that he didn’t want to lose me because he cares about me so much. He didn’t want to be the one to break my heart. And I’m really happy that we’re best friends in this present day and age. I don’t know, I just wonder sometimes what it would be like…
I’ve got to say that this 2 week vacation in Italy with my parents has been a whirlwind. We’ve seen so much that many people want to experiece, but I’m very fortunate to come to Italy at 20 years old and experience Italy that many people my age don’t get to. But this whole entire time I’ve been thinking about my Paul :) Ever since we said goodbye to eachother, I already missed him so much. It makes me want to cry because we’re thousands of miles apart and I don’t get to hear his voice or his laugh… Although we do send text messages and Facebook messages, its not the same. Out of all my friends back home, he’s the one that I miss the most :( but he’s counting down the days and so am I!
One of the places that we visited calledd Moneglia is a cute little beach town. And I was thinking that maybe one of these days I would like to live here and own a little store or bakery. Someday, someday…
And I’m actually drinking with my parents haha :P its cool.
^^^^ tis true…! Italy in 2 weeks, OMG! I gotsa pack hella sh*t.
So its Talia’s 20th birthday today, thank goodness! She’s no longer a teen :) She invited me to come to dinner tonight with her family and grandparents to Fratello’s, an Italian restaurant that’s very good! I hope Talia likes the things that I got her for her birthday haha… Just a bunch of odds and ends but I think she will appreciate the things that I got her.
I can’t believe that I’m leaving for Italy in 3 weeks!!!!!!!! I’m super stoked about the whole trip but I’m really going to miss Paul though… He’s bummed that he’s going to see me for 2 weeks and I can understand why though. But I’m going to miss everybody else too. I think going to Italy will have me open up my mind to a whole new way of life. The food, the culture, the atmospheres, the way people live in Italy… I just hope that I won’t be swayed by the Italian boys that are there ;) They can be very flirtatious!
So the way things are right now between me and Paul are going good. Things can be hard sometimes because he lives in the city and I live here in San Jose… It’s just hard for us because we live so far apart. And we get to see each other maybe 3 or 2 times a week. To be honest, I am jealous of my friends relationships because their boyfriends/girlfriends live at least 15-20 minutes away from each other!!! But with situations like mine, you have to make the best of it. I just never expected to have my first relationship to be long distance… Last month, me and Paul were having a conversation in his car about our relationship and how long it will last. It scared me and I broke out in tears. He told me how he felt at the time as did I and we both agreed that if we ever broke up, we would remain friends. But I told him honestly that I don’t want him to break up with me because he means so much to me and it makes me sad and angry that we can’t see each other as much as want to… But if we became friends, it would be totally awkward and I don’t think I would feel comfortable.
So all I can say is to just go with the flow and see what happens.
I have come to realize that there are such people out there who only care about looks. The first thing that these certain people notice is how “pretty” one girl is or how she’s not that “cute”. It’s like… Does it really matter how good-looking you are to one person or how attractive you are??? It just annoys me heavily because people should look beyond the looks on a girl or boy and get to know that person. It makes me realize how much looks matter these days to certain people and I just wish that they could open up their eyes to realize that maybe this person isn’t so bad after all.
I also hate it when people beat around the bush. It’s just a waste of fucking time and energy. So just do yourself a favor: stop fucking around and just tell the truth.
peace :D
2 weeks into the summer season at Raging Waters has been slow… not very many people haven’t been coming to the park because of the weather, and plus the tickets can be pricey. But I’ve met quite a few people who are new lifeguards this year and they’re cool. Just a couple that I’m kind of sketchy about so I’m staying away from those guards. I just wish that we got paid more =/
So there’s this girl who has been on my shit list for the past couple of weeks because of her actions and just in general also. I want her to grow up, quit being a hypocrite to herself, and listen to her friends.
It’s not that hard to be honest.
I miss Paul… just sucks because I live here in SJ and he lives in the city; we both have jobs and plus money is tight these days so not everything works out. We just have to go with the flow and do what we have to do. But I don’t miss him to the point in which it makes me sad though. I was shocked when he told me that. I don’t like to see him like that because I wish I was there with him even more :) I just don’t want him to break up with me because of the long distance thing…
I think I’m exaggerating just a little. But I really do miss him.
So I’m just hanging out with Sophia! Yay! We had some awesome chocolate fondue with yumm-a-licious sides (bananas, twinkies, pound cake). We both needed to catch up with each other big time! haha. So me and Sophia both agree that people need to act maturely when dealing with planning parties and such. Because its not fair for anyone to be informed at the last minute about events that no one even told anyone about! We are not in high school anymore, people. Just grow up, seriously. And it doesn’t matter if we weren’t there at the time and place of any announcement; it just doesn’t work like that.
