Eh.
So its Talia’s 20th birthday today, thank goodness! She’s no longer a teen :) She invited me to come to dinner tonight with her family and grandparents to Fratello’s, an Italian restaurant that’s very good! I hope Talia likes the things that I got her for her birthday haha… Just a bunch of odds and ends but I think she will appreciate the things that I got her.
I can’t believe that I’m leaving for Italy in 3 weeks!!!!!!!! I’m super stoked about the whole trip but I’m really going to miss Paul though… He’s bummed that he’s going to see me for 2 weeks and I can understand why though. But I’m going to miss everybody else too. I think going to Italy will have me open up my mind to a whole new way of life. The food, the culture, the atmospheres, the way people live in Italy… I just hope that I won’t be swayed by the Italian boys that are there ;) They can be very flirtatious!
So the way things are right now between me and Paul are going good. Things can be hard sometimes because he lives in the city and I live here in San Jose… It’s just hard for us because we live so far apart. And we get to see each other maybe 3 or 2 times a week. To be honest, I am jealous of my friends relationships because their boyfriends/girlfriends live at least 15-20 minutes away from each other!!! But with situations like mine, you have to make the best of it. I just never expected to have my first relationship to be long distance… Last month, me and Paul were having a conversation in his car about our relationship and how long it will last. It scared me and I broke out in tears. He told me how he felt at the time as did I and we both agreed that if we ever broke up, we would remain friends. But I told him honestly that I don’t want him to break up with me because he means so much to me and it makes me sad and angry that we can’t see each other as much as want to… But if we became friends, it would be totally awkward and I don’t think I would feel comfortable.
So all I can say is to just go with the flow and see what happens.
